Becoming part of the world..

As i sit here at 3:32am i think of how the world will change within the next 4 hours. Everyone will be hustling and bustling, with the normal everyday routine. Why can't i be like that? just be a normal planned out human being, you know. The ones who walk around w/ palm pilots and planners with lists so impossible to complete in one day, it makes you want to pull your hair out.

As i sit and watch the adults and teenagers run around like chickens with their heads cut off....i think, "doesn't anyone just stop to breath anymore? Life is limited. Why is everyone on the almost impossible mission to 'get rich or die trying' ? Did I miss the memo?" I'm not too sure that I have reached the level with myself, where I can fully prepare myself for adulthood.  But, then again. I dont think I ever will...


I am in no hurry to grow up. Being 19, and semi- carefree for the time being, I'm going to enjoy it before my youth ends....before I end up like the palm pilot carring adult that I DONT want to become, but is INEVITABLE to become. Well...cheers to the 1 year i have left!! :)